STUCK March 20, 2008
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I don’t like to share things that are kinda personal in my life but i have no other outlet to say what I’m feeling.
Recently I’ve been in verbal fights with a certain group of people. These fights have been over trivial things, like tweaking plans by a couple of hours, but they’ve gotten blown WAY out of proportion. Anyone who knows me well knows that I have a temper when I am provoked and I defend myself when I feel like I’m being attacked, but now the people who I thought knew me best are now all of sudden seem not willing to except the person I am. Or at least that’s what it feels like from my end. Yesterday there was another miscommunication, not a big one and something that didn’t need to be fought about, where I explained that i was at fault, cause I was, because I misunderstood something in a conversation we had. But even though I realized I was wrong and tried to come to a compromise I still couldn’t seem to get any openness from the other end. And now there’s no communication going on even though I completely changed the subject. All the responses I got was one short phrase made up of three words, two of which are curse words, that I don’t understand and I don’t even know if it has anything to do with what we were talking about.
How do I tell the people I thought would be the most understanding how I truly feel? How do I tell them that such little things don’t need to be fought over? I know that feed the fire but once again it’s just in my personality to respond to something that really hurts me. How do I tell them that I’m sorry for the situation but not sorry for anything I’ve said because they will NOT walk all over me? How do I tell them that some of the things they say about really personal things in my life concerning the people I care about really hurt and that they shouldn’t be concerning themselves with it all that much? And how do I tell these women who always claim to be upfront, but recently, never explain vague phrases they’re using that they’re are no longer being that upfront?
How do I tell them I’m stuck?
I’m stuck trying to talk to them and maybe work things out but I’m not going to give up myself and what I think in the process. Asking advice from people who maybe know a lot about the situation and are just trying to help but aren’t in it because it feels like I’ve been isolated from the people who I normally go to. Stuck, trying not to piss these people off but trying not to be a complete doormat. Just stuck.
I love these women with all my heart but I’m having such trouble trying to get through. And I feel that speaking on here is the only other way I can try to get through.
To the people addressed in this messege, please don’t take this in an aggressive or mean way ladies.
Oh Boy March 12, 2008
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I wasn’t planning on writing again this week but I have to put these on the page because I just think they’re funny.
and just to say, I’m not an athiest or a racist or any other kind of thing like that, I just thought these pictures were HILARIOUS!!!
Drawn March 10, 2008
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Ok guys, short blog this week. There are two songs currently that i seem to have an extensive draw to. I can’t explain why especially because music surrounds my entire life, but ever since i heard these songs, no matter how many times i listen to them, they never get old to me. So I’m posting a video for one and the name and singer of the other(so you can check it out on itunes cause i couldn’t find a video for it) to share this draw with you. Enjoy:)
Colors~ Will.I.Am
The Parting Glass~ The Wailin Jennys
Reverting Back and Then Some March 6, 2008
Posted by jaimeebtchfst in Rants and Raves.add a comment
Ok…. so…. currently I’m living in so called “dorms” for my college. In actually though, they’re more like apartments. In every room only two people share a bed room and a bathroom and in the sophomore and up dorms people get their own rooms. Every dorm has it’s own living area which is fully furnished, the freshmen dorms are equipped with a kitchenette and all the other dorms have full kitchens. They’re really nice and i personally think of my self as spoiled in comparison to other college students.
However, it seems like every time i walk out my door, somethings is damaged. Exits signs are always knocked down, the elevator is broken have the time, railings in the stairs are broken and handles are taken off the doors. The only reason why this happens is because the wasted college students get bored on a Saturday night and decide to damage the building.
I’m sure this is a problem in every college. But it’s ridiculous!!!! I live in an incredible building that almost everyone around me seems to be taking for granted, including the management because instead of looking to see who caused the damage(because there’s cameras in every hall) they just send maintenance to go fix the problem so it can happen again the next weekend.
Call me crazy but, when you live on your own and your in charge of feeding yourself and clothing yourself, it puts you in the category of an adult. It just shocks me that these so called adults are reverting back to elementary school, only this time there’s no teacher to get you in trouble. People need to realize they’re not the only people who live in the building!!!!! I know this is never going to change but at least i can express my frustrations here:)
Kinda really off the previous subject. Recently I watched three 50’s Sci-Fi movies, Forbidden Planet, The Day the Earth Stood Still, and Invasion of the Body Snatchers. I would completely recommend all three of them and if you only have time for one I would go for Invasion of the Body Snatchers. It was just really cool to watch a movie from a genre that i had never experienced plus the fact that the movies were pretty awesome themselves:)
